Sunday, March 15, 2009
Just something I've been thinking about ever since our last Beth Moore session on "Esther" - conditional trust. It gave a name to something I have struggled with for ever so long and underscored with deep black lines the truths the Father has been teaching me. Whenever the thing I feared most loomed large in my life, I would exercise this sort of trust. In essence I would say, "I trust you Lord - as long as it all works out the way I have asked You to work it out."
I never said it in so many words, but it truly was underlying everything I thought and said. I could trust God, just as long as.... If it didn't go according to plan, I would find my faith taking a body blow that sent it reeling.
Over the past few years, the Lord has been gently adjusting my vision. I have learned (and am still learning - to be sure) to place my trust in who He is and not in my plan. It is truly freeing, like chains that once bound my heart falling off, to surrender the "plan" to the One who will do that which is best - always.
When I exercise that unconditional trust, it is such relief. Like a little child, I can rest in the truth that I have a Father who will never fail to love me perfectly and will guide my life with mercy, grace and wisdom.
That's what I've been thinking about this lazy Sunday afternoon.